thehefner: (Bill the Butcher: Reflective)
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I missed seeing two of my favorite comedians from my favorite comedy troupe performing live. One of them in particular is a performer I'd love to have in my own audience, someone with whom I suspect we share a wavelength, and someone I'd dearly enjoy taking out for drinks. At the very least, seeing him live would have been a personal thrill.

I missed and am missing Baltimore Comic Con, where I could have seen a rare, painfully rare panel appearance of my favorite creative team in comics, and subsequently I missed out on finally meeting my favorite among them, a man who happens to be my favorite comic writer. I was ready to finally tell him what I thought of Dostoyevsky's Crime and Punishment, a book which he charged me to read when we briefly corresponded in his blog's comments thread. I actually would have had something to talk about with this guy whose work has meant so much to me for almost twenty years. That's not even to mention the fact that I might have been able to finally get a drawing from a man who isn't just one of the finest creative minds at DC Comics, but also those closest thing there is to an official Two-Face artist. Owning a Harvey sketch from him would have been a crowning achievement.

I missed and am missing my favorite Fringe Festival, having made the unprecedented and horrible decision to cancel with just a week's notice. This is a Fringe populated by some of my best friends in the business, one in particular above all others, and the audiences are of the fleeting kind that remind me why I still do this. After a year of frustrating festivals, of disappointments both great (a couple) and small (too many), Indy Fringe would have felt like going back to the well and diving in headfirst. I didn't just want to be there. In some days, I needed it. I still need it.

I know that, if I had done the third, I couldn't have done the first and second favorite things. And yet, here they all are. All at once, these things which are more than diversions but events which are important to me on a personal level of all that drives me as a passionate fan and artist, separated from me only by a little bit of time and a little bit of money. Neither of which I have right now, or at least, neither of which I can spare. So here they are, yes. There they go. And there they've gone.

And yet... and yet again...

Instead of all that, I just spent the last hour with the main (but far from only) cause for why I missed all these things. This same cause ripped me out of my sleep yet again, screamed in my goddamn ears yet again, and puked up upon me yet again. And then I held him. And fed him. And heard his cries recede, his squirms settle down like head on a beer, as he stared up at me with that wide-eyed wonder he has as I read aloud some Harlan Ellison. After I couple pages, I glanced down to check on him, and saw that the pacifier had dropped out of his mouth, because his smile was just too damn big to hold it in.

Goddammit, Universe. You win. Worth it.

Date: 2011-08-21 07:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yaseen101.livejournal.com
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW....



Date: 2011-08-22 06:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thehefner.livejournal.com
Heard it in Patrick's voice too.

Date: 2011-08-22 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lillbet.livejournal.com
In general I can't stand my friends who have kids because that is all they are about. They change their FB profile pictures to photos of their kids. Their status updates are all about their kids. They have no lives, no interests, no anything that doesn't involve their kids.

But for some reason I read this entry anyway. And goddammit, sir, you best be writing all this into your next show, 'mkay? I would pay to see that shit. PAY, I TELL YOU.

Date: 2011-08-22 06:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thehefner.livejournal.com
Trust me, I very much do not want to be one of those parents, no matter how much all the other parents assure me that I WILL, resistance is futile and all that. Similarly, I actively wanted to avoid having my shows become all about my kids, because shit, we've all heard or read stuff by writers we've liked that goes downhill the second it becomes all about the wacky and endearing foibles of their innocent li'l offspring BLEEECH.

But since, as previously stated, resistance is futile, then your comment gives me hope that at least maybe I'll actually have something worthwhile to do with this new material. :)

Date: 2011-08-23 02:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whimmydiddle.livejournal.com
I don't mind pics of the kids in the Christmas cards so long as the parents are in there WITH them!

Date: 2011-08-22 02:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yaseen101.livejournal.com
Then you'll LOVE Maes Hughes!!

I kid, I kid.

Though in all seriousness I remember having similar thoughts when I saw my cousin's boy friend crying because she was leaving for holidays for a couple of weeks. I literally wanted to slap him and scream 'MAN UP YOU SISSY!!!' at his face.

Date: 2011-08-22 03:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thehefner.livejournal.com
For weeks now, I've been considering getting a Hughes icon for these kinds of posts. But pretty much only three people, including you, would get it.
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Date: 2011-08-22 09:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thehefner.livejournal.com
Egad, edit comment! Edit comment! Henchgirl hasn't seen FMA yet! The spoiler tag is not enough! *flappity*

Date: 2011-08-22 11:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yaseen101.livejournal.com
Aiieeeee! No paid account. So I had to delete, edit and repost below.

D-did she see it?

Date: 2011-08-23 01:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thehefner.livejournal.com
She did not! Huzzah! Don't worry about it, it happens! :D

Date: 2011-08-23 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yaseen101.livejournal.com
Whew! Thank god Huzzah! Yeah, I know.

Date: 2011-08-22 11:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yaseen101.livejournal.com
::manly!squees at the fact that you've seen FMA too::

A Hughes icon would be perfect for these kind of posts.
I would say go for it if you really want it.

I can't say that I get the reference for every user pic I see and I don't expect everyone to get where some of my stuff is from either.

Date: 2011-08-22 03:53 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-08-22 07:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] surrealname.livejournal.com
i should mock you, but i can't. you're teh daddy.

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