being introspective, don't mind me

I get kinda crazy sometimes, y'know? I mean, pff, of course you know. If you read this journal or have spoken to me for more than five second, you know. I get worked up, worried, anxious, and just really neurotic, and sometimes I really need to relax. I remember whenever I'd get like that around Tammy, I'd yammer on as is my way and she'd just put her finger to my lips and say "shh." Not in condescending "You need to stop talking" kind of way, like they did to my character in "The Cherry Orchard." But in a "shh, it's okay, don't worry about it, it's all right" kinda way. It was nice, really.

And you know, times like this I really do need a special someone to be my anchor, to reassure me and calm me down when I get like this. I'm worrying and anxious and paranoid and crazy about a number of things, and there's no point in that. I just need to find some way to chill.