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thehefnerDamn. I have having such a hard time finishing this new Hefner Monologue, the one that is supposed to end the first book. I've been struggling with this one increasingly over the past couple months, picking away at it a bit, getting frustrated, going to write fanfic instead, repeat cycle. What used to flow out so naturally has become difficult and frustrating. I've been wondering what the hell happened, and I just realized what's wrong:
I'm happy.
Shit. I'm actually happy now. Nothing so ruins the artistic process like happiness! Charles Schultz said that the best work he ever did was in the two-year period in the 70's while he was going through a long and painful divorce. Now I'm happy, and the last thing I really want to do is throw myself back into the memories of those painful days, not even to write about how they resolved. I don't *want* to immerse myself in memories of Tammy, Misty, and Dave again, dash it all! My mind wants to ignore these and think about things that make me happy, like my girlfriend and comics! Right now, what I really wanna write is that Two-Face fanfic! Fanfiction over Hefner Monologues... god help me, how far have I fallen?!
Yet I've put this book off for too long. Once I get this last troublesome story done, then I will finally have a first draft of a complete, publishable book! I can't afford to just put it off anymore, it must get done!
Happiness. The artist's worst enemy.
I'm happy.
Shit. I'm actually happy now. Nothing so ruins the artistic process like happiness! Charles Schultz said that the best work he ever did was in the two-year period in the 70's while he was going through a long and painful divorce. Now I'm happy, and the last thing I really want to do is throw myself back into the memories of those painful days, not even to write about how they resolved. I don't *want* to immerse myself in memories of Tammy, Misty, and Dave again, dash it all! My mind wants to ignore these and think about things that make me happy, like my girlfriend and comics! Right now, what I really wanna write is that Two-Face fanfic! Fanfiction over Hefner Monologues... god help me, how far have I fallen?!
Yet I've put this book off for too long. Once I get this last troublesome story done, then I will finally have a first draft of a complete, publishable book! I can't afford to just put it off anymore, it must get done!
Happiness. The artist's worst enemy.
