27 Hours Until Showtime...
May. 13th, 2004 03:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thehefnerAnd the show must go on, as Freddy Mercury said. Or was it Jim Broadbent?
I have recieved a couple of inquiries as to the state of my well-being over the past couple days. As it stands right now, I am honestly not feeling all that good. Not that good at all. Seeing![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
cavenessity's kick-arse film with the rest of the peeps last night helped to stave off the feelings, but of course it just served to be a temporary distraction. Even two days later my feelings are just as sore and pained as they were then. I made a pledge to repress Sulky Heffie, but that was before these new revelations, and now... I can't hide the way I feel. I can't pretend like I'm not hurting in my real life. I just can't. I'm sorry, I don't just wear my emotions on my sleeve, I make a whole frickin' three-piece suit out of them! And right now, things are not feeling very good at all.
But I swear to God: I will not, repeat, NOT let any of that enter on that stage tomorrow night. No matter what I may be feeling, I will not let it tarnish or otherwise negatively affect the show, either in my meager performance or in the chance of my off-stage actions which might affect the performances of others. I would never do anything to sabotage the months of hard work everyone else has put into this, no matter what I'm going through. I have to suck it up and endure it, or else I'm just yet another unstable factor, and let's face it, these shows don't need any more of those.
I'm an actor, for God's sake. I need to be strong enough to do what needs to be done for the sake of everyone else. If there are those who doubt my abilities to control myself, I hope I can put your fears to rest.
Break a leg, everybody. It'll be a great show tomorrow, I'm sure of it.
I have recieved a couple of inquiries as to the state of my well-being over the past couple days. As it stands right now, I am honestly not feeling all that good. Not that good at all. Seeing
cavenessity's kick-arse film with the rest of the peeps last night helped to stave off the feelings, but of course it just served to be a temporary distraction. Even two days later my feelings are just as sore and pained as they were then. I made a pledge to repress Sulky Heffie, but that was before these new revelations, and now... I can't hide the way I feel. I can't pretend like I'm not hurting in my real life. I just can't. I'm sorry, I don't just wear my emotions on my sleeve, I make a whole frickin' three-piece suit out of them! And right now, things are not feeling very good at all.But I swear to God: I will not, repeat, NOT let any of that enter on that stage tomorrow night. No matter what I may be feeling, I will not let it tarnish or otherwise negatively affect the show, either in my meager performance or in the chance of my off-stage actions which might affect the performances of others. I would never do anything to sabotage the months of hard work everyone else has put into this, no matter what I'm going through. I have to suck it up and endure it, or else I'm just yet another unstable factor, and let's face it, these shows don't need any more of those.
I'm an actor, for God's sake. I need to be strong enough to do what needs to be done for the sake of everyone else. If there are those who doubt my abilities to control myself, I hope I can put your fears to rest.
Break a leg, everybody. It'll be a great show tomorrow, I'm sure of it.
