Good Stuff... kinda

[thehefner]

Last night on stage, I pushed myself further than I'd ever gone.

My mother asked me last night, "If you had the chance, would you do Good for a longer run, like a month or two?" Two days ago, I would have said yes. Last night, as much fun as it was hanging with tomperdue, tazira, and the resta the peeps, I couldn't shake the feeling that the end of the play put me in. I really should have listened to my better instincts and not have drank anything, not even one Irish car bomb. Then again, maybe it really wouldn't have mattered either way.

The evening ended with me more melancholic and unhappy than I ever wanted to be in the company of my friends. Some questions were finally resolved, and even if I didn't like the answers it's better than nothing. The gloom of today isn't helping the mood any. Oh well, if nothing else, perhaps I'll be able to channel this in for tonight's final show. For now, I'm enjoying the care package my mother left me: beef jerky, pretzels, and Rogaine. Mmmm... hair.

The performance last night was the best it's ever been, and I don't know if I'll be able to top it tonight. The feedback from everybody has been much, much appreciated. Thing is, it was only after speaking with my mother that I realized that so much of this performance stemmed out of my dealings with my Father (who isn't coming to the show... I suppose he wouldn't understand it anyway, since this is, after all, the man who couldn't follow "Groundhog Day"), which, among other factors both obvious and not, made this such an intense performance. I hope that I will be as successful with Vigil when the time comes.

I'm sorry not everybody could make it to this show. There are some, like my father, that I especially wish could have seen it. Hopefully they'll be able to make it to Vigil.

Comments

[ortugatay.livejournal.com]

::love::

Damn!!! I missed it!

[eldridgeprime.livejournal.com]

Heffie-baby! I am so sorry! So much stuff going on. I need emails to remind me usually. This last night I had a long past due family engagement. Please forgive my absence. I really want to see you show your shtuff! I do most of my communicatin' and plannin' via email. Please email me the next time and I will do my damnedest to get there!

Re: Damn!!! I missed it!

[thehefner.livejournal.com]

Will do! No worries, mate. I'll let ye know.

<i>Good</i> was great.

[pokeyburro.livejournal.com]

As I'd said in the green room, I'll say here: not really knowing the story at first, I wasn't so sure about a lot of the choices as I was getting used to the setup... and by the end, knowing you in real life, you were the perfect person for this role. If I'd known the show was going to be this good, I'd've rounded up everyone and driven them over myself.

Great party, afterward, too! Good to see your friends again. Kinda funny to see three 30-year-olds hooking up with the college crowd....

Re: <i>Good</i> was great.

[thehefner.livejournal.com]

Thank you, man. Sincerely.

[tazira.livejournal.com]

It was gorgeous, seeing you go there. It takes extraordinary courage, and now you know why. And it feels like shit, and it feels oddly good, like probing a missing tooth with your tongue. You were going to be melancholic and shaky either way, drink or no. A scene like that really takes it out of you for the rest of the night.

I can tell you that with years of familiarity, it does get easier to put the lid back on.

[thehefner.livejournal.com]

Thank you, we'll see if/when I get other opportunities to go there.