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thehefnerI am seriously considering proposing a show for the Rudes' upcoming season. Lord knows I've been wanting to for some time. But right now, and maybe it's just the tiredness in the late hour talking, or maybe it's the "itis" I've got from all that turkey, but right now for whatever reason I just don't know.
So many factors to take into consideration, not the least of which is the simple fact that I don't honestly know what the hell my post-college plans are at this point. I mean, I know for dead certain that I need a job, but Jebus knows where I'll get one that I won't be miserable in, or what kind of hours to expect. Factor into that that I'm hopin' to his things like the LOWT auditions and maybe, possibly, get CAST in a *paying* role for once. But these two factors, certainly the most important of my immediate college future (money money money) are so uncertain and in flux right now it seems almost silly to postpone any other life plans just in the event that they just might conflict.
And if they don't conflict, then what? I've never directed a show, there's one problem. Well, sure, I directed "A Day in the Death of Joe Egg," but I was also forced to take the lead role at the same time, so I'm not so sure that really counts. And when it gets down to it, I don't really want the sole responsibility... I mean, like with Vigil I'll be glad to SHARE the main responsibility, I'm all up for that, but I don't like everything being on my shoulders. At the same time, there are a number of plays that I want to see produced, that I have lots of ideas for, and the Rude Mechanicals are some of the best damn actors I know so I'd be gaurenteed a brilliant show in one form or another.
But even still, after doing two shows already I feel totally burnt out. After "Cherry Orchand" and very likely "MacBeth," not to mention finishing my novel and GRADUATING FROM FUCKING COLLEGE I'll be lucky if I'm still alive. Maybe that factor right there is proof positive that I'll need a break. Even still, there's that creative soul nagging and nagging at how cool it would be to finally do a show with the Rudes. And after all, there are several options ahead of me.
With the Rude Mechanicals:
KING LEAR: I still have a very good cut of the script, but sadly we still have no King.
RICHARD II: Even though it's (IMO) much more ambitious than LEAR, I'd love to try my hand at this play. .
DUCHESS OF MALFI: And hell, it would be so much fucking fun for the Rudes to do this. Ooooooooh, that is sooo damn tempting. Like TITUS, but with better poetry!
And with Second Stage too:
THE IDIOT: Lord knows I've been itching to do my adaptation of Dostoevsky's book for years now.
LITTLE MURDERS: I'm also sorely tempted to bring out the current relevance in Jules Feiffer's masterpiece... actually, no I'm not, I just love that evil, evil, fucked-up play.
VIGIL: Hey, you guys loved it, why the fuck not?
And then, of course, there's that recurring problem: I'm an actor, first and foremost. No matter how I cut it, I can't deny that I so long to play Edgar, Richard II, and Prince Myshkin, and were I to direct any of their plays but not play those characters, that would surely be a complication.
What to do, what to do. Lots of factors to take into consideration, and right now I'm too brain-fried and worn down to do it. I've got time ahead of me, and maybe in that time I'll either come to my senses, or people will talk sense into me. Whatever sense may be.
So many factors to take into consideration, not the least of which is the simple fact that I don't honestly know what the hell my post-college plans are at this point. I mean, I know for dead certain that I need a job, but Jebus knows where I'll get one that I won't be miserable in, or what kind of hours to expect. Factor into that that I'm hopin' to his things like the LOWT auditions and maybe, possibly, get CAST in a *paying* role for once. But these two factors, certainly the most important of my immediate college future (money money money) are so uncertain and in flux right now it seems almost silly to postpone any other life plans just in the event that they just might conflict.
And if they don't conflict, then what? I've never directed a show, there's one problem. Well, sure, I directed "A Day in the Death of Joe Egg," but I was also forced to take the lead role at the same time, so I'm not so sure that really counts. And when it gets down to it, I don't really want the sole responsibility... I mean, like with Vigil I'll be glad to SHARE the main responsibility, I'm all up for that, but I don't like everything being on my shoulders. At the same time, there are a number of plays that I want to see produced, that I have lots of ideas for, and the Rude Mechanicals are some of the best damn actors I know so I'd be gaurenteed a brilliant show in one form or another.
But even still, after doing two shows already I feel totally burnt out. After "Cherry Orchand" and very likely "MacBeth," not to mention finishing my novel and GRADUATING FROM FUCKING COLLEGE I'll be lucky if I'm still alive. Maybe that factor right there is proof positive that I'll need a break. Even still, there's that creative soul nagging and nagging at how cool it would be to finally do a show with the Rudes. And after all, there are several options ahead of me.
With the Rude Mechanicals:
KING LEAR: I still have a very good cut of the script, but sadly we still have no King.
RICHARD II: Even though it's (IMO) much more ambitious than LEAR, I'd love to try my hand at this play. .
DUCHESS OF MALFI: And hell, it would be so much fucking fun for the Rudes to do this. Ooooooooh, that is sooo damn tempting. Like TITUS, but with better poetry!
And with Second Stage too:
THE IDIOT: Lord knows I've been itching to do my adaptation of Dostoevsky's book for years now.
LITTLE MURDERS: I'm also sorely tempted to bring out the current relevance in Jules Feiffer's masterpiece... actually, no I'm not, I just love that evil, evil, fucked-up play.
VIGIL: Hey, you guys loved it, why the fuck not?
And then, of course, there's that recurring problem: I'm an actor, first and foremost. No matter how I cut it, I can't deny that I so long to play Edgar, Richard II, and Prince Myshkin, and were I to direct any of their plays but not play those characters, that would surely be a complication.
What to do, what to do. Lots of factors to take into consideration, and right now I'm too brain-fried and worn down to do it. I've got time ahead of me, and maybe in that time I'll either come to my senses, or people will talk sense into me. Whatever sense may be.
