is it safe?

[thehefner]

Something must have clicked this weekend, because ever since about Friday I have felt better than I have in months. Since February, even. And I keep waiting to see if I'm, like, forgetting anything. Ever get so seemingly inexplicably happy that you're actually a little anxious about it? I keep waiting for the rug to be pulled out from under me or something.

Jules Feiffer once did a cartoon, and I'm paraphrasing from memory here: "Whenever I see a beautiful blue sky, I want to enjoy that beautiful blue sky. But I know the second I do, it'll start to rain. There's only one time when it's safe to enjoy anything: after it's over."

Regardless, I feel good. I have my theories as to why, but I won't go into those yet; I don't want to count my epiphanies before they hatch. Maybe tomorrow or next week something will smash this feeling to bits, but for now I'm gonna allow myself to enjoy this. And tell that raincloud to go fuck itself.

As of this moment, for however long it lasts, life is good.

Comments

[kwsapphire.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear it. You deserve a few good days... :)

[thehefner.livejournal.com]

Thanks! For some reason, it means a lot hearing it from you.

[gore-whore-5.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling of inexplicable euphoria all too well. I had it all summer long. Good luck with keeping up your high spirits. I'll do my best to not fuck it up. Not like I would anyway, but whatever.

[fiveseconddelay.livejournal.com]

There's only one time when it's safe to enjoy anything: after it's over. ref: How can a living man be honorable?

[morganashkevron.livejournal.com]

It's good to see you happy again. You really do deserve it. Perhaps you should line your bubble with steel - prevent punctures ;)