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[thehefner]

At 1:30, I went with a bunch of peeps to the playground of the local elementary school, and for a few hours we played hide and seek and capture the flag. Much fun was had by all, and I found out that, of all things, I'm pretty damn good at stealth. Who knew, right?

Depressed lately. Not sure why. It's not the old stuff, I'm done with that. It's finished, over. But just, since then, something's felt... missing, y'know? Like something that was so vibrant and burning before has just died inside me. Turned to coal. Even when I was going crazy and miserable with stuffs over the past couple years, there was still this spark inside me. Now... I don't know.

I don't want to turn into one of the South Park goth kids. I want to get happy again, I mean fundamentally happy. Gonna work on that. Resentment's been building up in me. The deep frustration with being dicked over and put upon, the recurring sense that I deserve better than this shit (and who am I to talk, everyone here's felt that), and again I'm trying to find ways to vent it before it gets to me.

Ahh, look at what I'm doing. Shut up, Hefner, go to sleep. See SIN CITY tomorrow, that'll help.

Comments

[fishymcb.livejournal.com]

I just saw a Batman Begins teaser...that help any?

No?

Don't make me come down there. It's looking like next weekend, the 15th-17th, is a go. So there.

[thehefner.livejournal.com]

Cool. I'm gonna need some excuse not to be doing my thesis (which, I think, will be due about that next week, nyarg). Lookin' forward to it!