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thehefnerI started to write a long meandery angst post, but it just went nowhere. Goddamnit, I'm tired. Goddamnit, I'm melancholic again. I want her to talk to me again. I want her to tell me it wasn't my fault, because I know it's not but I need to hear it from her. I need her to know it herself. I can't stand the thought of her blaming me for her misery. I couldn't stand it with my father and I can't stand it with her. And maybe I don't need need it but damn it it's what I fucking want so much. But as is the way with such things, of course I will never hear it. I will never get from her the validation I want.
But on the plus side, Taco Bell brought back the Cheesy Gordita Crunch. Gorditas can't fill the emptiness inside of me. But they help.
But on the plus side, Taco Bell brought back the Cheesy Gordita Crunch. Gorditas can't fill the emptiness inside of me. But they help.
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Date: 2005-08-25 03:14 pm (UTC)p.s. I'm learning my lines, and liking the play better all the time. To quote Gneil, "It's weird, but cool. But weird. But cool."
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Date: 2005-08-25 05:51 pm (UTC)P.S. Good for you! I still have to learn my King John lines first. GAHHHH!
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Date: 2005-08-25 03:48 pm (UTC)"Homer, did you eat all that cheese?!?"
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Date: 2005-08-25 05:26 pm (UTC)Taco Bell
Date: 2005-08-25 04:16 pm (UTC)As to her, after many experiences now, I believe that it is highly unlikely for immature people (like her) to realize the error of their ways until much later, if ever. Don't pine on it. Let it go. I know I hung onto my angst over my loves way too long. It was a waste of energy.
You really are a damn good man. Attractive, intelligent, full of charisma, enthusiasm and talent. Loads and loads of talent. I genuinely believe that if ou keep that in mind but don't let it go to your head and you get out there and meet more people, you will find a cool, attactive, intelligent woman that is crazy about you.
And if that doesn't work out, there is always fiveseconddelay waiting to jump your bones. ;-p.
Re: Taco Bell
Date: 2005-08-25 11:19 pm (UTC)Re: Taco Bell
Date: 2005-08-27 02:32 am (UTC)I haven't met you in person, but your writing alone is enough to beguile.
Re: Taco Bell
Date: 2005-08-27 04:27 am (UTC)Ok, at this point, I really do want to ask: who the heck are you?? You have intrigued me entirely far too much! Do you AIM? I'm SamBluestone3383.
Re: Taco Bell
Date: 2005-08-27 02:13 pm (UTC)I'm Covenhouse. Say "hi" sometime.
And as far as who I am, I just liked your writing, and came to your lj to read more, and then thought-- "Wow, cool. I have lots of things in common with this fellow."
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